Anyone have this problem? Ever since becoming ill from my mold exposure in 1999 I have dealt with this off and on. Sometimes trouble getting to sleep is mild and sometimes I have been awake for 36 hours straight. My autonomic nervous system has been out of balance from the beginning making it hard to take a nap even during the day because no matter how tired I am, as soon as I lie down my brain kicks in to overdrive and I start planning what I should be doing.
Last night was one of those nights. I usually take a melatonin (Allergy Research Sustained Release) every night around 9:30 so that when my head hits the pillow at 10:00 it doesn’t take long to fall blissfully asleep. On the days when even that doesn’t seem to be enough I had 5HTP the next night. My daughter and I were up and falling asleep in our chairs by 10:30 so we both went to bed. I was tired and taking melatonin or anything else just didn’t cross my mind. I layed down in bed with my brain in overdrive. When I finally realized I wasn’t going to sleep for a while it was too late to take the melatonin if I wanted to get up and be alert this morning. I turned on the television trying to drown out my brain in hopes it would lull me to sleep. That didn’t work. I tried reading and got sleepy but as soon as I put the book down and tried to sleep, my brain started in again. The last time I looked at the clock was around 1:00 a.m. I have no idea when I finally fell asleep.
Of course my sleeping pattern has been off the last two weeks. My daughter and I are up past my normal bedtime watching movies and visiting and then I get up later than I usually do. She is leaving today (we are driving her to the airport). I think between my schedule being so off and my dietary intake being off and just the angst of having to send her off may have contributed to my sleeplessness last night. Tonight I am taking my melatonin and 5HTP at 9:00 p.m. and heading to bed by 9:30/10:00. I am also going to force myself to get up early to hopefully reinstate my sleep cycle.
Actually in my sleeplessness last night or early this morning I actually started composing a poem about sleeplessness titled “Sleep Won’t Come”. Apparently it came sometime during the composition of the poem because I feel asleep and only remember bits of it.
On my pillow my head does lay
Waiting for sweet dreams to take me away
Sleep Won’t Come
etc etc etc – Maybe I will remember more and finish it.