That Funny Little Voice In Your Head

Today is the last day of my “Spotlight” Author blog tour with Rave Reviews Book Club. I am excited to be hosted by J.V. Carr. My time in the “Spotlight” has been so wonderful.  I thank Rave Reviews Book Club for the honor.

That Funny Little Voice in Your Head

Out of nowhere I would be driving to work and start crying as I was about to turn onto the street where my office was located.

How many times have you had that feeling deep in the pit of your stomach that tells you that something you are about to do is wrong? To read more of this blog post about that “little voice” in your head, please visit me on J.V. Carr’s blog.

I’ve Made A Decision!

Finally, I have made a decision.  I have been talking and talking about this darn tooth that needs pulling.  I have debated about pulling it out or going through a very difficult procedure to allow for a permanent crown and the possibility that the tooth may still die.  I have talked about my intuition telling me to not go to the doctor that my biological dentist recommended to have the tooth extracted whose office is an hour away because they used to burn scented candles.  I have talked about going into an oral surgeon’s office locally to see if I could tolerate it only to spend two days in and out of bed.

I then talked about going against my gut instinct when I thought I did better after making the drive and checking out the original oral surgeon’s office.  I then talked about what happened when I decided to go against my gut and choose the first oral surgeon and he refused to work on me.

Last week I phoned the local oral surgeon’s office and spoke again with his surgical assistant.  She had originally told me the would try to accommodate me.  I decided to find out what they would be willing to do because I need to get this done so my mouth and my health can recover.  I finally got to speak with her on Friday morning while babysitting the grandbabies.

She told me that she would remove the air fresheners on Thursday.  She would allow the office to not have them Thursday and Friday and there would be no patients on Saturday or Sunday. She would not put anything back into the office until I no longer needed to see the surgeon.   She would reschedule other patients to later day appointments so that I could be a first patient and be in and out before any other patients came into the office and if necessary take me out the back door.  She would text all staff early Monday morning and remind them not to wear lotions or fragrances including the oral surgeon.  She would order whatever supplies that my biological dentist recommends be used for me.  While this is not a perfect solution as you all and I know the chemicals will still be there but at least the plug-ins won’t be spewing them into the air for a few days before I get there.  But she is willing to mitigate my exposure the best she can and try and make me as comfortable as she can.

I made the decision that this is as good as it is going to get and scheduled the appointment.  My scheduled appointment is Monday, July 29th at 8:00 a.m. PSD.  I will schedule an appointment with my acupuncturist if I can for the same day and try to get an IV scheduled for Wednesday with my ENT because he is out of the office on Tuesdays.

So my intuition was right!  This other guy out-of-town was the wrong choice.  I had no idea he would be so unwilling to accommodate my sensitivities but my gut instincts were telling me no and I tried to override them.  The whole time I had thought the local oral surgeon’s office would be the best choice but chose to ignore it because I had become ill while visiting the office when in fact his office was the one willing to work with me.  I need to trust in my intuition.  I need to trust that it is right when my brain tells me otherwise.

Have you ever gone against your intuition by listening to your brain instead of your gut?  Were you ever able to find out that your intuition was right before you went through with the wrong decision?  I would love to hear from you.

I also will be asking for some healing thoughts from you as my time gets nearer.  I have had teeth pulled before with not very good outcomes.  I had wisdom teeth pulled and dealt with horrible dry socket.  I had four teeth pulled in my 30’s to allow for braces to fix my TMJ issue.  I was given Valium through an IV while the work was performed.  I knew from my TMJ issue that Valium, even 2 mg., would leave me goofy for days but never thought anything about them using it in an IV.  The Valium didn’t leave my system and settled in my vein causing a horrible reaction and infection in my arm.  And I guess I felt more than I realized because my wedding band looked like a big D when it was all over and I had to have it put back into a circle.

My Gut Instinct or Lesser of Two Evils

I have posted about my problem tooth.  My biological dentist wanted me to go to a very specific oral surgeon that he works with.  I phoned the oral surgeon’s office and was not very excited about what I was told regarding candles in their office.

Determined to find another office I tried one locally and did not do well.  This set me off in search of an oral surgeon who didn’t have air fresheners or candles in the office.  I phoned another local office and was told that they also used air fresheners but they were willing to let me go through the back of the office and check out one of the surgery rooms.  I had planned on trying Monday but wasn’t able to make it there.  I phoned an oral surgeon out-of-town and was told that they didn’t have air fresheners but they had dealt with water leaks in the building.

A few days ago a friend had posted on her Facebook page a thank you to her dentist for fixing a chipped tooth.

Me:  I replied that I still hadn’t found a safe dentist.   Dentist: The dentist replied that he knew a very good dentist.  Me: I again replied does he have air fresheners or candles.  Dentist: The dentist replied that he so had air fresheners.  Me:  Why do so many doctors and dentists feel the need?  Dentist: Because all the chemicals used in a dentist’s office give it a unique and unpleasant smell.  I remember hating the smell of the dentist’s office when I was a little girl but why add insult to injury by adding more chemicals to cover up the other chemicals?  I just don’t get it.

Yesterday my husband had a doctor’s appointment out-of-town.  The same town where the oral surgeon’s office is that my biological dentist had wanted me to use.  I rode with my husband and sat in the car during his doctor appointment.  We then drove to the oral surgeon’s office with the understanding that my husband would go in first and if he wasn’t totally blown away, I would step in and check it out.  He waved me in.  I walked in and even with my mask could smell the remnants of fragrance.  I asked if it was possible to be shown to one of their inner rooms.  I walked in, removed my mask, and immediately became hoarse which was not unexpected.  We talked about my sensitivities and I asked if the surgeon wore cologne and she said yes but because they had worked with my dentist, they would make sure not to wear anything the day of the visit.  While I didn’t feel good (I don’t feel great in my biological dentist’s office either), I didn’t have my throat swell on the way to the car or have to take histamine nor did I spend yesterday afternoon or today in bed.

The bottom line:  While I am still not sure if I feel totally comfortable at this office or am totally sure it is the right choice based on my gut instinct, it is the lesser of all the other evils.  This tooth has to come out to cut down on inflammation and to avoid the possibility of more infection because I only have a temporary crown.  My other option is a crown lengthening procedure that I won’t even post a link to because it made me sick looking at what is done during one.  On our way home I phoned my dentist and had them make the referral.  I will only take a first morning appointment (hopefully on a Monday) and will have to coordinate to have acupuncture afterwards.

I am unhappy that I have to override my instincts.