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Sleep Won’t Come

Anyone have this problem? Ever since becoming ill from my mold exposure in 1999 I have dealt with this off and on. Sometimes trouble getting to sleep is mild and sometimes I have been awake for 36 hours straight. My autonomic nervous system has been out of balance from the beginning making it hard to take a nap even during the day because no matter how tired I am, as soon as I lie down my brain kicks in to overdrive and I start planning what I should be doing.

Last night was one of those nights. I usually take a melatonin (Allergy Research Sustained Release) every night around 9:30 so that when my head hits the pillow at 10:00 it doesn’t take long to fall blissfully asleep. On the days when even that doesn’t seem to be enough I had 5HTP the next night. My daughter and I were up and falling asleep in our chairs by 10:30 so we both went to bed. I was tired and taking melatonin or anything else just didn’t cross my mind. I layed down in bed with my brain in overdrive. When I finally realized I wasn’t going to sleep for a while it was too late to take the melatonin if I wanted to get up and be alert this morning. I turned on the television trying to drown out my brain in hopes it would lull me to sleep. That didn’t work. I tried reading and got sleepy but as soon as I put the book down and tried to sleep, my brain started in again. The last time I looked at the clock was around 1:00 a.m. I have no idea when I finally fell asleep.

Of course my sleeping pattern has been off the last two weeks. My daughter and I are up past my normal bedtime watching movies and visiting and then I get up later than I usually do. She is leaving today (we are driving her to the airport). I think between my schedule being so off and my dietary intake being off and just the angst of having to send her off may have contributed to my sleeplessness last night. Tonight I am taking my melatonin and 5HTP at 9:00 p.m. and heading to bed by 9:30/10:00. I am also going to force myself to get up early to hopefully reinstate my sleep cycle.

Actually in my sleeplessness last night or early this morning I actually started composing a poem about sleeplessness titled “Sleep Won’t Come”. Apparently it came sometime during the composition of the poem because I feel asleep and only remember bits of it.

On my pillow my head does lay
Waiting for sweet dreams to take me away

Sleep Won’t Come

etc etc etc – Maybe I will remember more and finish it.

Osteo What?

I had my first sinus surgery in November 1999 shortly after the attempt at aspirating my sinuses failed.  By January I was still sick and and getting black mucous from my sinuses that my doctor suspected could be fungus.  A second surgery was performed in March 2000 to try and alleviate all the pain I was having.  I continued to be sick and in pain.  By April things had gotten horribly bad.  From my book:

…I received a devastating phone call from Dr. Spitzer.  The news was not good.  He had received the results of the bone scan.  The scan showed I had osteomyelitis (an infection of the sinus bone) and I would have to take antibiotics intravenously for six weeks.  He had scheduled for a home health nurse to come to my home that night and start and IV…..After several attempts by the home nurse to place a line in my hand, she gave up…the nurse phoned my doctor and I was told to come in at 7:45 a.m. and he would place the IV line and I could take my first dose there…

The schedule for taking this antibiotic (Primaxin) was exceedingly difficult on me.  Taking Primaxin is like taking a chemo drug.  The IV schedule was three times a day for six weeks.  I lost sleep because of having to get up early just to get the medicine out of the refrigerator so I could take it an hour later and going to bed late because of my night time treatment.  I lost my appetite and began losing weight.  Depression came on me like a big black cloud.  Eventually I had to cut my work schedule to half days because I was too tired and depressed to work a full day.  Here I had only been working less than a year and had taken time off work for two sinus surgeries and shortened my work days.  The guilt I had for leaving my co-workers in such a mess just deepened my depression.  Even then I was confident that I was going to get well and had no idea the ride I was in for.