I have an office space for my creative writing and doing the bills. I was an avid seamstress in my “old life”. There was a time during this illness that I thought I would never be able to sew again. I couldn’t focus or concentrate. Looking at printed fabric and trying to place pattern pieces in different shapes caused severe anxiety. It was even worse if I wanted to make something that required two coordinating fabrics which only increased the visual overstimulation and the level of anxiety and panic I suffered. I kept trying only to suffer and give up. Finally one day I was determined to make my first grandchild a simple sundress. I chose a simple stripe and a very simple pattern. It took me twice as long as it should have but I managed to get it done. Eventually I braved a little more complex pattern and fabric with more color. I still am scared to death of the zipper even though I put many in before becoming ill and losing my self confidence. I am going to set aside a morning very soon and take some scraps and a zipper and practice until I can get it right. It is a matter of retraining my self and letting go of the fear of messing up. After all, it is just a zipper and some scrap cloth.
I have set my sewing machine up in the kitchen and my cutting table up in the living room but the clutter leads to anxiety as well. I always felt the need to have everything picked up even if my plans were to finish the project the next day.
Lately, I have been sharing the playroom for my grandchildren with my sewing table and my cutting table. This hasn’t been very successful. Every time I get started on a project they come to visit and my stuff gets in the way of their toys or they get so many of their toys out that I can’t get back into my table to sew and be creative unless I spend a good deal of time picking up and putting away toys. Usually by that time the creative urge is over. Meanwhile my sauna room has doubled as a bedroom where I keep the small air mattress for my grandson to sleep on or put the larger one down when my daughter is here for a visit.
Today, I decided that I have had it with all the mess. I spent the greater part of today moving the air mattresses out of the sauna room and moving my sewing stuff into the sauna room. I think I can finally get started again on the quilts for the children’s hospital and some school dresses for my granddaughters.
Tomorrow I will turn this into a playroom with space for an air mattress. The crib will be gone as it is way too small for my grandson. It was fine when they were all little. I purchased the all metal crib because I didn’t want to deal with wood and wanted something I could easily safe and not worry about from grandchild to grandchild. I think there will be some toys I can get rid of.
Where do you do your creative work? Does the room do double duty? If so, how do you manage that?